Hi Louis;
Doubts are normal and healthy. They make us re-evaluate ourselves and our decisions. I would go with my inner self if I were you. After all, who knows us better?
Good luck with what ever you decide.
I have put in a friend request, you sound like a fun person to know.
Blessings
Eileen

I love, love, love that you are willing to say you don't feel ready! There is a certain respect I place upon those who are humble and honest with themselves.

Maybe you don't feel ready because you don't think you're ready. Or is it because you don't want to join the coven setting?

Or you're dragging your feet for another reason and need to be pulled through your fear. Remember initiation really isn't the end of the learning period...you're just getting started.

I say have a seat. Ask the gods. I didn't feel ready for a long, long time. So the gods came and initiated me. There's no rush and you don't need a group to move forward.

Blessings y brazos,
Espi